urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hollowcoin hollowcoin hollowcoin 2007-02-08T13:29:04Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hollowcoin:1261 2007-02-08T13:29:04Z 2007-02-08T13:29:04Z It's when you smile while you're crying.<br /><br />It's when you tell your parents you're out with a crazy guy when you're the one who's crazy.<br /><br />It's when you say try to choke yourself and die when you want so much to be alive.<br /><br />It's when you bow to an imaginary audience.<br /><br />It's when you say nothing even though you are screaming inside.<br /><br />It's when you die on your birthday.<br /><br />It's when you make a big deal out of nothing.<br /><br />It's when you shrivel up with emotions splattered on the floor.<br /><br />It's when you believe in love and the wickedness of humankind.<br /><br />It's when the sun shines at a funeral wake.<br /><br />It's when someone dies laughing.<br /><br />It's when you miss someone you don't even know. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hollowcoin:937 2007-02-07T11:46:56Z 2007-02-07T11:46:56Z The world is driving me crazy. Suddenly an infinite amount of work is dumped on me and I don't feel like doing it. I must be out of my mind, because <br /><br />a) I have really important exams this year and everything I do will affect the turnout of my grades and<br />b) my teachers will kill me,<br /><br />so I better get down to doing it right now, bye.<br /><br />Kidding. <br /><br />You get what I mean though. It's a whirlwind of assignments, pressure, teachers breathing down your neck, the whole stress package. What I'm afraid of is hearing this from my friends:<br /><br />"We don't talk anymore." Damn right we don't. It's because I'm too busy, having to cope with a deluge of homework every single day, having to meet more and more expectations, wanting to do so much but only accomplishing so little because I fall asleep at my desk.<br /><br />Again. And again. Et al.<br /><br />Or maybe, secretly, it's because I can't be bothered. Out relationship is now on a level of stagnant complacency. We don't need to do anything to maintain it, we just are.<br /><br />Yeah right.<br /><br />I've stopped trying. I've stopped being the person who initiates every single conversation, going after people's company like my life depends on it, because, suddenly, I don't care. At least, until a sentimental twinge emerges. What's gone wrong? Nothing.<br /><br />With some people, no matter how hard you try, you know you'll never get them to open up to you, and vice versa. I guess I haven't figured out which people I attract or repel, which is why I'm failing Physics.<br /><br />Nah, that's not it. It's all about the Chemistry, I guess. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hollowcoin:583 2007-02-06T12:20:40Z 2007-02-06T12:20:40Z Not much to say.. yet. Just testing how this looks like.